I woke up today and immediately went downstairs to make breakfast. The extra hour in the morning I have to do this is a luxury I’ve recently acquired from the new job. I made my my morning elixir and some toast with almond butter, strawberries, bananas, and chia seeds on top. I ate it while watching the morning news (or at least what I could tolerate until I switched it over to Botched), and showered afterwards. It was just another, ordinary day.
Except when I got in my car, the radio was playing Nas’s Oochie Wally and I automatically got into full-blown ratchet-girl-dancing in the basement of a house party mode, body-rolling in my seat as I switched gears. By the time I got to work, I was feeling energized, focused and dare I say it – GOOD?
If you know me, then you know that I am not the one to be feeling all positive and shit. Yet that’s exactly how I felt sitting at my desk. Naturally, I began to question this optimism. Thinking it’s a fluke, and that something bad was bound to rain all over my parade. I started to feel silly about being happy. Then, I started to feel silly for feeling silly about being happy. I felt like the universe was going to take it all away at any minute. WHO FEELS BAD FOR FEELING GOOD?
I do, and I’m not the only one. It’s hard to feel secure with your happiness when you think you have no control over it. When your happiness is dependent on outside factors like coincidence or other people, it makes sense to think that it is merely a fleeting moment.
When this happens, remind yourself that you are where you are today because of the effort you did or didn’t put into getting there. If that doesn’t work, because you don’t believe in yourself, then look around at the “successful” people in your life. I’ll be honest, I find myself envying others all the time. But then the envy quickly turns into admiration, because I know that she flies all around the world because of her hustle. I know that he is able to live a lifestyle he loves, because of his determination. And she is as happy as she is because she has worked for her peace.
You can absolutely get lucky and be at the right place at the right time, but your own actions still determine what happens next. Even the universe relies on your manifestations. So give credit where credit’s due, especially when it’s to yourself. That ordinary morning, I had to remind myself that I my current job and situation wasn’t handed to me. I got it after a grueling 2 months of job searching. My ordinary morning became an extraordinary day because of ME.
Oh, and of course with a little help from Nas.