RoseElephant copy.jpg
  • dearabi

Send to Voicemail – TBT Post 06.30.11

People sometimes pride themselves in not calling someone they shouldn’t. I know I do, but that’s the easy part. The real test comes when it’s 2:30am after the club, and a familiar ring tone goes off and it’s him.

I always wondered what I would do if that ever occurred. Would I answer? If I did, what would I say? Would I be cool and act as if nothing ever happened? Or would I say all the things I never got to say, and rip him a new asshole? It was one of those hypothetical questions I felt I could never answer until the opportunity actually presented itself. Then, one day a number that was all too familiar showed up on my screen.

And you know what I did? NOTHING. Absolutely nothing.

Not sure if it was because I was driving and didn’t want to crash into a tree, or even worse wind up in front of his house. Or maybe it was the shock over his audacity to even call that prevented me from picking up. Either way, I let that bitch ring straight to voicemail *cue Sunshine Anderson’s Heard it All Before*.

But OF COURSE it affected me. I couldn’t even listen to the message without having my girl screen it first (did I ever mention how much I love my girls?). Just the muffled sound of his voice alone threw me in momentary disarray. I was fully aware of what part I played in the making of that voicemail, and knew it opened up a can of worms. So I gave myself an hour or so to go Diary of an Angry Brown Woman over it … and then closed the can back up.

Because last month I wrote this blog, and initially thought I was being naive. But if there was any indication that I meant what I said, it was that first hour after he called. He was (barely) in my life again for an hour and shit was already more than I could stand, yet less than anything I could ever want.

So I deleted the voicemail just before I was about to listen to it again (le sigh). I cleared my call log. I deleted his texts, and even deleted the screen shots of his texts that I sent to my girls. I wanted so bad to reply back to the last thing he sent me, but opted to send Rach a “Just … fucking … NO!” text instead. Once again, I responded to him with NOTHING. Sometimes nothing is the best thing to do.

But if you’re stubborn like me and absolutely must do some thing …

“When the past calls, send it straight to voicemail – it has nothing new to say.”~Unknown


Recent Posts

See All

Lies You Tell Yourself.

I don't know who needs to hear this - actually, I do. YOU DO. Person who just unwillingly, begrudgingly heartbreakingly ended a relationship. JUST STOP. Don't do it, just don't! "Stop what?" you may b

Who Do You Love?

I LOVE you. It may not be the “glitter and the gay”, I may not want to shout from a mountain top and I rarely blog about it, but it’s love alright. It’s a grown-up love. One where I respect you, we ta

My Wish for You.

Where you met. Your first date. First kiss. Anniversary trips. Your favorite restaurant. Order at Philz. Secret park. Guilty pleasure TV shows. Dream destinations. Birthdays. Christmas. New Years. Eve

  • White Facebook Icon
  • White Twitter Icon
  • White Instagram Icon

© 2020 I'll make you feel things.