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My Favorite Pain in the Ass.

I watched a movie staring Jason Bateman called This Is Where I leave You not too long ago. In the movie, he catches his wife cheating on him and his immediate reaction is disbelief in the form of utter silence. Although he didn’t say anything, his face said it all and for a split second I was reminded of the anxiety that accompanies betrayal and a broken heart. Having not been in a relationships as long as I have, I cannot not even fathom how it would feel to be cheated on. The thought alone has me panic stricken. 

Getting into a new relationship is as scary as it is exciting, and allowing someone “in” can be terrifying. Even on a smaller scale.You ultimately have to be yourself but one can’t help but be nervous that the other person won’t like you based on your quirks and habits.  For instance, I’m always nervous making the bed in front of someone for the first time.

Did you know that the tag on your blanket determines what side the bottom is? I was unaware of this until a friend of mine told me one morning, and I immediately felt stupid. I should probably mention that this friend slept over the night before. Also, I was very much “in like” with said friend. Though seemingly simple and mundane, making the bed is one of many, petty little things I feel a person of interest may judge me for. And there’s plenty more where that came from.

What if my next crush doesn’t like the way I iron? What if he hates that I fall asleep during car rides home even when I promise I won’t? What if he doesn’t like the way I play with my hair? What if he gets annoyed with the way I drive, or the fact I take my socks off and leave them underneath the sheets in the middle of the night? What if he mistakes my “chillness” for being indecisive or not having an opinion? WHAT IF HE DOESN’T LIKE THE WAY I MAKE THE BED?

The list goes on, but I guess none of it really matters anyway. Your quirks may very well drive the next guy crazy. But if he’s the right guy, those same quirks that drive him crazy will also make him crazy for you.

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