Deepening the Crisis
I cannot fucking stand myself right now. I don’t even have writer’s block. It’s more like writer’s diarrhea; so much shit all at the same time resulting in you guessed it – a complete mess. Hope this excerpt from one of my favorite books holds you down ’til tomorrow. It’s “bootleg enlightenment” at it’s best. Enjoy.
“If you’re going through hell, keep going”~Winston Churchill
Meaningful personal growth rarely occurs without anguish, crisis, and lost. Maybe you’re in a dead-end relationship or haven’t come out to your parents. Or maybe you’ve got a secure job but always wanted to make it on your own. You need to change your life. But you’re not going to make a move until things get a lot worse. In such a state, the only way forward is deeper into crisis.
Pushing yourself deliberately into crisis is never easy. After all, it’ s only natural to resist permanent damage to your identity. But if you can bludgeon your resistance into submission, you can reach the point of no return. Past this point, you are fully committed to the crisis. With no way back, your once-idle doubts and speculations must crystallize into desperate convictions. With your consciousness polarized into a brawl of warring factions, your choices will at last lie clearly and unforgivingly before you.
The deeper my crisis, the clearer my choices.
From Daily Afflictions: The Agony of Being Connected to Everything in the Universe.