dearabiFeb 231 minbut she'll never be you.She was Colombian and Thai. The one before her, French and Black - both dancers. And just like that, I felt so ... plain. It's silly and...
dearabiJan 102 minPeople Who Walk in the Rain. I used to be afraid of the rain. I thought it would dissolve the facade of me being OK. Strip me of my smile and uncover a season of sad...
dearabiDec 30, 20211 minSugar N Spice.What are little girls made of? Sugar n spice, and everything nice. That's what little girls are made of. But women like me who were born...
dearabiJul 12, 20212 minRadical Acceptance.I've been seeing a therapist on and off for a decade now. I've tried a few. From a hypnotherapist to a sex therapist to a cognitive...
dearabiJun 28, 20211 minI See You.What a tragedy it is for you to not see the beauty I see in you. To be blind to the way your eyes widen and sparkle when something...
dearabiMay 11, 20211 minI Sea You.There's nothing like the sea, to make you see. Just how small you really are. Not small like the grains of sand covering the beach Small...
dearabiApr 12, 20212 minThe Audacity.A few days ago I shared a story on Instagram about the time I moved to New York to pursue writing, yet told the cashier at Brooklyn...
dearabiMar 15, 20212 minHit it on the Nail.Fun fact: my mom didn't let me grow my finger nails until I graduated high school. She thought I was too young to. Sometimes, I'd get...
dearabiMar 8, 20212 minPutting the FUN, in Fungi.I always wanted to try psychedelic mushrooms, but was too scared to have a "bad trip" considering my mental health journey. I've tried...
dearabiMar 1, 20212 minThe Difference.I knew I could marry my ex boyfriend when I knew I would be OK if we broke up. This doesn't mean I didn't think I wouldn't cry if we did....
dearabiJan 18, 20212 minLonely, but Not Alone.Don't tell me not to feel lonely. You don't know what lonely is. I've spent many moons dancing by myself, and solo sunsets staring into...
dearabiDec 28, 20201 minHealing Fatigue.I'm sure every single person that is reading this right now can agree with me when I say, "I. AM. FUCKING. TIRED". Tired of quarantining,...
dearabiDec 21, 20202 minThe Ands.During one of my therapy sessions, Angela asked me how I was feeling. I told her I'd been feeling the "ands". It wasn't until I started...
dearabiNov 9, 20202 minSexy, Accomplished, Vulnerable, Strong, Beautiful, and Loved.In leggings and a sports bra. Right after yoga, pudge and abs all in one. NamaSlay. Walking around my clean apartment and watering the...
dearabiOct 5, 20202 minthe light in me honors the light in you.When I immigrated to the United States from the Philippines at the age of 2, I lived in a few different apartments in San Francisco. But...
dearabiOct 2, 20201 minWelcome to the new, old GATNBWhether you've been rocking with me since I was "a pair of Christian Louboutins and fresh out the box Js all in one" or are new to the...
dearabiOct 2, 20201 minhell has no fury like a woman scorned.And then the sky turned orange and it looked down on us. Muffled by the smoke it whispered, “I warned you”. We have failed her, and for...
dearabiOct 2, 20202 minRedefinition.Everyone always asks me how I feel, and I always tell everyone I’m … “OK”. And for the first time, I’m not lying. I’m just scared. Scared...
dearabiJun 29, 20202 minApples and Trees.A friend of mine started sharing random videos of cute babies doing cute things after she realized I held the same affinity for them....
dearabiJun 12, 20202 minQuaranTime.It is now officially Day 40 of shelter in place (SIP), although technically Day 48 for me. I suppose it’s now appropriate to call...